Altered States part 1

Bo could not believe he was sitting at the bar, here at the Palace, torturing himself. Right next door, in the palace banquet hall, his life was swirling down the proverbial toilet. Right next door, Nora, the love of his life, was celebrating her new marriage to Sam Rappaport. Bo thought his world ended after the car accident. At least when
she returned, he still stood a chance. Not now.
Bartender: Another beer?
Bo: Bourbon, double, straight up, leave the bottle.
He could hear the party in the next room, the laughing, the happiness, the love. Everyone he cared about was in there. It was tearing him up inside and out.
Bo: How could I have been so stupid? (pause)So stubborn?
Bartender: Sir? (putting the drink and bottle down)
Bo: Ah...nothing. (to himself) Nora, Nora, Nora...why didn't I talk to you? You begged me...(drinks) Why did I let Sam...SAM...slip in...(drinks) and steal you from me? Ah...Red..(gulps down the last of the drink)
Woman's voice: Always talk to yourself in public?
Bo turns around. It's Lindsey.
Lindsey: Bo, honey, why are you tormenting yourself so?
She tries to put her arm around him.
Bo: Lemme alone.
He shrugs her off.
Lindsey: The last thing you need is to be alone...
Bo: I have my self pity to keep me company and this bottle of fine Tennessee whisky, and not to forget my new best friend here...hey, buddy, what's yer name?
Bartender: Ken
Bo: My friend Ken. So you, YOU leave me alone!
Lindsey: She's not worth this Bo. She hurt you. They both hurt us. They are evil and they deserve each other.
Probably end up with a half dozen whiney drooly brats...
Bo stood up, turned around and in one swift move had Lindsey against the bar, with his hand at her throat.
Bo: Get this straight, you witch, she is worth it! And whole lot more. We had something beautiful, she was my world. Now she's gone. Married to that..that..waste of a bad hair cut. You stay away from me. Got it?
He lets her go and walks out. He stops as he passes the closed banquet hall doors. He looks at the doors and then walks out of the Palace. He starts his car and turns on the radio. Percy Sledge, "When A Man Loves A Women" is playing. He shuts it off.
Bo: I am done with oldies songs. Damn it anyway!
He starts to drive away. In his anger, drunkeness or maybe the pain in his heart, he put the car in drive instead of reverse and drives over the parking stump and right into the car in front of him.
Bo: Damn, damn, damn!
He gets out and slams his fists on the hood of his car then trudges back in to the Palace. It started to snow, lightly.
At the desk, Bo begins to tell the clerk about the accident and to call the motor club. Out of the corner of his eye, he catches Nora, along with Rachel, walking back into the hall. He rushes over to them.
Rachel: Bo! Oh...uh...how are you?
Nora looks at him, then looks away.
Bo: You look beautiful, Red.
Nora: Thank you.
Rachel: Mom? We have to go Bo...Mom, Sam's waiting...
Bo keeps staring at her. She is obviously uncomfortable with this unexpected meeting.
Nora: Uh, yes, I have to go. Sam is waiting.
Nora and Rachel walk into the hall. As the door is slowly closing, Bo catches a glimpse of Nora with Sam. She is smiling as Sam kisses her on the cheek. She looks truly happy.
Bo: It should be us.
The door closes, he goes back to the parking lot, were the motor club was finishing the removal of his car from the stump. He gets in and drives away. He doesn't realize Lindsey has been watching him and is now following him.
Along the drive home he finally sees the headlights following him. He turns on to his street. The headlights follow. He pulls up his drive way, the headlights follow. He pulls his gun from its holster. He waits. The headlights shut off and the door opens. Bo takes a bead on the door, ready to fire. At the last second, he realizes its Lindsey. She walks up to his car as he replaces his gun in the holster. He gets out of his car.
Bo: What the hell are you doing? Do you realize I carry a gun, and I had it drawn?
Lindsey: No. I didn't. I just wanted to make sure you were alright. I was worried. You were drinking. I had to make sure you got home ok. That's what friends do. For each other.
Bo: I am fine. And we are not friends! Why can't you get it?
Lindsey: You're not serious. It's just the alcohol talking. I love you Bo.
Bo: Yeah, well, I don't love you. I love Nora. I always have loved her, I always will love her, forever. I will die a
bitter shriveled old man, still in love with her. I asked you before, this is the last time I will ask you, LEAVE ME ALONE!
He goes into his house and slams the door behind him. In the house he has pictures of Nora everywhere. From their wedding, the fishing trips with Hank, candid ones, vacation photos. He walks over to his desk and sits down.
Bo: Red (he picks up the frame on the desk) It should be our wedding night.
He loved the picture on the desk, it was the best candid shot he ever took. It was more of a surprise shot. She had just gotten out of the shower, she thought he was asleep. She sat down on the edge of the bed, towel drying that
beautiful mop of red hair. He watched her through little slits in his eyes, she was so beautiful! In that old navy blue robe of his. He took her totally off guard, popping up, camera in hand yelling out "HEY!" and snapping the picture. She jumped a foot off the bed! She tried to snap him with the damp towel, but he was too quick. He grabbed her and pinned her to the bed, tickling and showering her with kisses. Pulling off the robe, they laughed and loved the entire day away.
Bo: (looking at the picture) I can't live like this...
He puts the picture down and heads upstairs. He get undressed and heads to the shower. He spots the small red candle on the corner of the sink.
Bo: Don't know why I keep that stupid thing...
He steps in the shower and turns on the water. The hot water starts to relax him. His mind focus on the times when she would surprise him. After a long day at the station, he would take a shower. Once the water was running, she would sneak in and light those candles, then turn off the light and slip in behind him, hugging from behind, her breasts pressed against his back. He would turn around in her arms, facing her. Feeling her body, kissing her. With the water showering over them, the candle light, the moment was perfect. He would make love to her so slow, he knew it would last forever...
The water got cold, he realized he was alone.
He stepped out of the shower and put on his robe. He looks at the clock.
Bo: 9:15. My days are so long.
He looks at himself in the mirror.
Bo: What kind of man have I become? Who are you Bo Buchanan? How could you have told her to leave? You
blamed her for Drew's death.
He was crazed that night. He flashed back to the night that would be the end of his marriage...
Nora: Bo, why can't you just talk to me? Sweetie, it's been a month now. I'm here for you. I love you. You don't
have to go through this alone. Your family is here.
Bo: I am alone.
Nora: Honey, you're not. Asa, Renee, Clint, Vicki, me, we are all here.
Bo: Yeah, you're here. But you know what? It really doesn't matter. Drew is not here. My boy is dead. Dead, Nora. Do you understand? Dead, because of you.
Nora: What?
Bo: You heard me. You. You weren't happy leaving things how they were. No. You always have to fix things. You wanted my son back in my life...
Nora: Bo, you wanted him...
Bo: Shut up! You wanted us closer. If he would have stayed with Becky Lee, if he would have went with his Mother, he'd still be alive! But no. No!! You....
Nora: Bo, this is the pain talking...
Bo: Quit diagnosing me! You are an attorney, not a damn doctor! Quit trying to fix everything! Just...just go away! Go fix Rachel's life! Leave me alone! I don't even want to be in the same room with you!
The words still echoed in his head.
He turned away from the mirror, disgusted with himself. After that night they began to drift apart. Hours of not talking turned to days, days to weeks. Nora took on more intricate cases that kept her away from home. He threw himself into his work, spending endless hours at the station. Even Hank could not get through to him.
He came home one night, the house was cold, it had been for a while. The love and laughter had died with Drew. He knew she was gone. He walked up to their room, her things where gone. He found a short letter on his dresser:
"Dear Bo,
I can no longer bear to live life like this.
I have tried for months to hang on. Hang on
to the hope that we could work things out.
I have come to the realization that this
cannot be repaired. The more I try, the
worse it gets. Please know, it is breaking
my heart to do this. But I'd rather live
with a broken heart, than watch you die with
one. I will always, always love you.
Nora"
And what did he do with it? Did it phase him? Did he go after her? No! He crumpled it up. Threw it in the trash and filed for a no contest divorce within two days.
Bo: How could I have hurt her so terribly?
He looked at the clock agian--9:50. He sat in the window and watched the light snow falling. He felt trapped in the house, so he got dressed again. He threw on his jeans, a flannel shirt and slid on his riding boots. He went downstairs and grabbed his leather jacket and gloves and headed out to the garage.
Bo: This is so stupid. (backing his motorcycle out) But I am stupid!
He put on his helmet and took off into the night.
The bike handled well, in spite of the snow. He rode through town, noticing the hanging sign on Nora's office was changed "Rappaport and Rappaport--attorneys at law"
Bo: Hmmmph!--Rappaport, doesn't fit her!
The snow started to get heavy. He stopped at the Palace. Unconscience plan? He went in, looking at the grandfather clock in the lobby-10:45. He noticed guests leaving the reception. Selma and Len going up to their room. Bo went to the desk and spoke to the clerk, then returned to an inconspicuous spot, where he could keep an eye on the door.
Hank and Sheila, Rachel and RJ head to the elevator...11:15...Clint and Vicki...Renee...11:25...Sam walks out, right past Bo, not even realizing it was him. Sam talks to the clerk and heads to the elevators.
Bo: He makes me sick...
The doors open again, Nora walks out with Suzanne. They hug, Suzanne heads toward the bar, Nora to the elevator.
Bo puts his helmet on. As the doors open, Bo runs toward Nora, he grabs her around the waist and pulls her into the elevator. The doors close. He stands behind her, silently holding her arms at her sides.
Nora: Who are you? Why are you doing this? Let me go!
She struggles, but it is no use. The elevator stops on the ninth floor, They exit, he pulls her to a room, opens the door and pushes her in. He walks in and slams the door behind them. Bo stands silent, still wearing the helmet, gloves and jacket. Nora turns to face him.
Nora: I know it's you Bo.
He remains silent, partly because he can't believe how beautiful she looks, partly because he never thought he'd have the nerve to make it this far with his plan.

To be continued....

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